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Oct 28, 2009

He Chose to Rinse his Mouth

He felt confused, as he rinsed his mouth, once again.
His mother yelled at him, he had wetted his shirt, again.
His father dragged him inspite of the wet shirt, into the car.
After all, they were going to the beach and it was not far.

The seven year old, walked with his parents, kicking the sands on the beach.
Feeling they were so near, and yet,so out of reach.

Suddenly his mother, ordered him to close his eyes,
while his father moaned, because of some, culture dies.

As his parents dragged him away,
He turned around to look,
At the couple who hugged,
unconscious or uncaring of glaring looks.

How will I tell them, he furiously thought
As his parents stood to watch, two men who fought.
He dragged them to the waves, from the cheering crowd.
But couldn't enjoy, even the waves, he dearly loved.

Yesterday he had easily confided to his parents, when a student had kicked him.
But today felt ashamed and didn't want to confide, what had happened, to him.

Confused between their shame towards affection
And the interest towards aggression.
He couldn't decide, if what had happened to him,
was affection or aggression.

What if it was something, that everybody did as a whim?
What if he mentioned it to his friends and they laughed at him?
It didn't happen in the cartoons and movies he saw..
Perhaps it was not even against the law.

You are Special and this is a Secret, he had been told
And what would his parents do, if the truth he told?
It wasn't a stranger, but a person, his parents knew,
Perhaps, this was something his parents already knew.
Will they tell this was just something he had to obey?
Or would they blame him for not running away?

Angry over being a pawn in someone's game.
He hated the Special Secret and feelings of Shame
Yet felt happy over being the chosen one..
If only he knew what he should have done..

He was a boy, and wasn't supposed to cry.
Yet salt water ran down from his eyes.
So he splashed more into the waves,,
Trying to hide the tears from his eyes.

Before leaving, he ran back to the sea
Annoying his parents by, again rinsing his mouth.
Well, It was easier to rinse his mouth,
than to utter the word sex from his mouth.

9 comments:

  1. cool, nice read.. really liked it

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  2. Hello WDM!

    I liked the poem. I tried very hard, but couldn't understand the following stanza properly:

    You are Special and this is a Secret, he had been told
    And what would his parents do, if
    the truth he told?
    It wasn't a stranger, but a
    person, his parents knew,
    Perhaps, this was something his
    parents already knew.
    Will they tell this was just
    something he had to obey?
    Or would they blame him for not
    running away?


    Had someone hugged the child? Molested him? Or was it plain affection, and the child didn't distinguish it from the hug of the couple on the beach?

    If it is any of that, then WDM, I'm truly, truly extremely impressed!

    In one of my responses to Saimukundhan, I was trying to explain how Sigmund Freud also did not distinguish between the attraction that a child feels towards his mother and the sexual attraction felt by grown ups! But not sure, if I had been able to convey that properly. :)

    I'm afraid I might have misunderstood your poem.

    Have you gone through any of my poems? You'll find them under the button--'poetry' on my blog.

    TC.

    PS: Even the 'um' in your above response also makes me respect you more! I think I'm going mad!

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  3. And the rate at which you're making modifications in your blog, I'm afraid, you're showing signs of getting bored with it. Which must not end in your abandoning it altogether! :(

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  4. And you know sleeping pills (benzodiazepines, particularly) are very safe. Once my psychiatry teacher had said that for someone to die of benzodiazepines, they should have a truck-load of them, and then the truck should pass over them! ;)

    So, your blog's description doesn't make it any more attractive! ;) Maybe you should start talking of efficacy rather than safety! That would be the USP! :P

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  5. ketan,
    perhaps you are ignoring the title of the post. i think it would have been more than a hug.

    the hug is significant re the parents being uncomfortable re sex but not aggression (the fight which they watch with interest. similarly not being comfortable to discuss what happened now, with being comfortable to talk about someone kicking him at school).

    i find it suprising when parents will let their children watch violence on tv, but feel uncomfortable if it comes to sexual..(I am not saying kids should watch adult entertainment..)
    just kids should be able to discuss their problems with their parents without taboo.

    re the um : i didn't want to go for a "thanks:)" since i felt it would be sort of exploiting..and didn't want to offend the person who complimented too..had to think for around 10 minutes to come up with an um.

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    whenever i get time i tweek my template. when i decorate a house, i don't intend to abandon the house:D i am just being myself..i have started blogging after a break, so just moving things around..this is the first time, i am spending so much time in this blogsite..

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    i was editing my blog description when the kid called so had to leave it at that..

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  6. on the freud part..
    when it comes to abused children sometimes feel confused over partly enjoying sex and feelings of guilt..(You are Special..)

    and parents worry about girls being abused,but don't prefer to think on those lines for boys..

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  7. It a scary world out there and we all have lessons to be learned. I plan to talk about everything (the warnings included) to my child and any children I have. But don't know wether we'll be able to convey what we want to and thats even more scarier to me..

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  8. deeps true its scary.. we can just do our best and hope for best..

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